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This is Puteri Adlin updating.

All these things were bullshit, and maybe he didn't care about his blog anymore.

I know this act is pathetic, sounds sad.

Don't tell him about this post please. Let him realize this himself.

I did this because I'm trying to let everything go. Not searching for attentions or sympathizes.

If you don't want to read this, all you have to do is unfollow this blog because it's going to be deleted, or not.

It's already more than a month since the day he officially left me.

I've tried to get over it since he's now happy with someone else.

And most of you have kept track with my tweets, blog posts, and such like that.

And I know some of you have already annoyed with me about this, lol.

But I think there's nobody that can feel this pain.

'The moment you didn't expected that can get someone you like but you really did get them' vs 'The moment you didn't expected that you lost someone you completely love.'

I didn't say that I'll never move on.

I didn't say that I'll die without him.

I want to move on. I am being strong. But it's too hard.

Our relationship was far beyond amazing, until he changed.

Almost everything reminds me of him. If we're still together now, we've been together almost 19 months.

Almost everything. My songs, my journal, even my pets and my porch.

I've experienced my first concert, with him.

It's too hard.
But one day, I'll be strong to get over this.
But I don't know when.

If I had the amount of money, the power, the brain;

I would move out from Shah Alam. From Selangor. Because he is everywhere by now.

I would study hard. I would score shits and get the hell out from this country.

And forget everything.

I hope that one day, he find me back.

Not for anything that involves love or mushy stuffs,

for telling me that he is regret, treating me and dumped me in a harsh and unforgettable way.

And almost everyday, I prayed for him to apologize to the girls that he have been with because for some stupid causes and irrelevant reasons. I felt pity to this one girl, because he have told me why he dated her. He 'used' you, please lah perasan this. If you feel you're the girl and you want to know why, just contact me because I hate this guilty feeling inside me.

No, I don't want to talk bad stuffs about him. I know he did that to me right now.

But I just want him to realize, that he was wasted. Wasted almost everything.

If you're not a heartless person, get this message into your head. :

It's fucking hurts,

to tell your girlfriend/boyfriend when you're going to dump her/him,

that the person you have found after her/his,

is way more better than her/him.

If she/he asked you why she's/he's better than her/him,

better answer that shit carefully.

Even when this happened and you talked to them nicely,

they'll be traumatized. Hurt.

And they also can't forget those words,

and this can affect their next relationship, or they're too hurt to have a relationship.

Or simply stop making promises. Wedding theme colors, how many kids, the 'forever' word.

All of that is bullshit when you're having a relationship when you're immature.

I know it's beautiful, it's sweet and all that.

OR, don't have a relationship.

Think twice when you found someone. Or when you want to have a boyfriend/girlfriend.

If you want one just to make them as your make out buddy, or just to try them;

don't. Why did you guys do that? Just to make em suck your cock or something?

I know 'love' can fade. Even husband and wife can divorce.

But know your limits. Learn how to respect people's feelings. Especially the good one's feelings.

Don't be a jerk. Please. Some people deserve to be loved, not to be crushed until they stop believe that they can't found someone better. Like me.

Sorry for wasting your time reading this. Sorry Rasyid, for hacking your blog. I didn't kutuk kutuk you. But I'm kind of pissed off when you blocked me on Twitter after I unfriend-ed you on Facebook. Coincidence, I guess? You shouldn't be offended if it was because I unfriend you. You filled my news feed with your love towards that Bella girl. I am jealous, because that girl changed you. From the day you started working at the bowling alley. And I'm curious, what did you do with my stuffs eh? Because if you threw all of it away or gave to someone, I'll burn your stuffs. Yes, I still keep your stuffs. And you promised to replace my ring kan? Alaaa the mood ring that you lost in sea when you're on a vacation to Port Dickson. Lol, please don't forget about that kay baby? You're the best, so far. Even after all the things you've did to me. Sorry for everything, thank you for the love and sweet things that you gave for less than a year and some months (idk when you started to 'stop loving' me) and I wish you all the best. I love your mom! Still can contact her. Ok lol bye!

Garbage

Bila tk penuh kita isi dan isi, but bila dah penuh kita buang, without it tempat kau penuh dengan sampah. It's the same situation dengan bila susah kita perlu, bila dah senang kita tolak ketepi. People like you dont deserve to live in this world. No emotion, no feelings, no thoughts just a black emptiness, a spot that contains pure emptiness, that's you. She maybe not be perfect, so do you, but she's trying to be good, trying to do good things to all of you, but you people are so flippin blind. Hate her, let her be, let her do her own things as long she's not distrubing your freaking business. Hate her, go ahead, hate her as much that you want, but you dont have to spread bad things about her through internet, through your bloody mouth, she does not need anymore pain.

Never underestimate her, what she can do or anything, if you do then you have already lost the battle before it got started, then please keep your peace of mind. Hate can do a lot of damage to one's life, take some time to think about it, what if someone wrote something horrible things about you, ask someone to hate you then you'll felt something that it called 'PAINFULL'. Hatred is very powerful emotion, if you are not strong it will beat you to death, unfortunately that is a sad fact to face but that will not happen to her or to me. Judge your self first before you judge her okay?

To all haters outhere

I would like to say thank you for all the ego and jealousy, for hating my gut, for your point of views, for all the comments and stories you created, for cursing me and pushing me down, for making me feel as if my existence is useless.
But you should know that you reason i am now stronger, you are the reason inow appreciate, with all good faith and honesty, god bless you.

Advice is a medicine to you, as bitter as it is , you'll still have to swallow. The more you swallow, the more you learn. I take each step of life making mistake day by day and i take all that as a taste of my own medicine. Each of them is just a stage of life.
Love your friends, and even your enemy. Learn to appreciate their existence, they are the reason you are who you are today. Dont be such a dumbass okay ? And dont you ever think you are better than anyone else.

Merepek

Rasyid has posted a solution for a boring (you guys) lonely (m ) weekend:


I am sorry, but I have to tell you that, since you go to australia this is a long lonely weekend without you. Nothing to do, there is no texts from you, my phone doesn't rings and vibrates ahh :( plus boring movies on TV. How about you people? what to do?

I have the solution for you guys:

***** TEST THE TEST-BRANCH OF ASTERISK !!! *****

Have fun, hanging out ( not me ) . To all nerds outhere they will come up with innovative and educational help texts. Hmm what else ? crash your softphone in new unexpected ways
and ENJOY YOURSELF!

Drive by the local diner, get a Burger King and some Red Bull or DrPepper, or KFC or McDonalds or anything, yeah go ahead be fat !!  Hmm and download some videos or songs at  youtube or finish your homeworks ( if rajin -,- ) but if you guys finish your homeworks now, later you will be 'goyang kaki' so my suggestion is finish your homeworks now !
 

And don't forget to log on to the facebook or twitter to chat with other. Well thats what guys keep doing right? Go ahead online around the clock until your eyes bruise, in all time zones just to make sure you are not alone.

Myself? I am not going anywhere excecpt do nothing at home, or maybe hanging out at skatepark (if rajin nak pergi) Other than that? watching tv, lying on my bed listen to my mp4 while thinking about her :') Uhh Im so not in the mood to do anything :'I

5th Anniversary

That is the best day ever in my entire life ! * Thanks to ewan hihi,  takpa aku dah belanja kau abc tu dah cukup dah lah. Heh keep in touch kay wan, thanks again :-p

Anyway these five months that we have been together have been the loveliest of all my life, and im sure that as long im with you, it will be always the loveliest of all my life. That day is our day, its just you and me, we're very much in love. Yet there are so many obstacle , haters and more . But i should reminds them, our love is so strong until nothing can separate us, nothing * mark that ! .

* Rasyid is so jiwang, well lantak lah bukan selalu. kan ? ;p

Rajin vs malas equal

Homework 

 Mathemathics
 Doing some loundry
 Enjoy cuti raya cina, did i ?
 Iron school uniform
 Lipat kain
 Basuh kasut
 More?? Oh yes ada lagi 
 
Oohhmygodd, its friday night already and i didnt do anything yet! Its to damn lazy to move my arms, uhhh! Well i have to, ( rajin lah sikit weh rasyid !! ) Im trying ! Ahh okay i'll promise myselft that tommorow i will do my all my homework, i mean when it come to Sunday i just wanna to relax :)

Lets learn some poem should we

You whisper into my ear
Sweet things that make me weak,
Then you look into my eyes
With your mysterious provocative gaze,
Causing you to touch my skin
To feel the burning of your flames,
Caressing me with a love that is real,
Then you kiss me...
As I feel your wet eager lips
Our hungry tongues indulging in their craving,
To feel the poison...
Of your blood boiling throughout your soul
Sending electrify emotions
Stimulating pure intoxication,
As your hands flows over me;
Touching every curve and every part of me...
It seems I move my legs apart automatically,
As you lift me on the mystical ride
While my body you know I will guide,
Just listen to every our song
Making love all night long,
The flames of passion, desire and love
Is taking control over us,
You put your hands in my breast,
As I feel a sensation so exciting,
When you kiss my nipples with your eager lips
Every time you do that,
It gets more and more fulfilling
Let me feel those sensations,
As I feel you deep inside me
Feeling a rage so incredible to resist,
As all I want is to let go
Of all your love I have in store,
You got me twisting...
Soaking wet,
I feel you as you are pausing deep inside me
And then I feel you pull out and pull back in,
I moan from pure delight and ecstasy,
I get the shivers,
But...
Is from the fire lit inside my being
My body is slippery everywhere,
I scream...
Please, harder and harder,
I call out your name...
Crying out in anguished bliss
A slight sigh...
''A gasp for air''
This fire is so immense
So full of energy and heat,

Even water could not quench

This fire inside of me,
Cause your love...
Always will remain
Burning there endlessly,
Cause you make my erotic senses rise,
While you take me higher and higher
Than I have ever been
In the mystical ride of yours,
That I just can't get enough
Because without you and your love,
There would not be a hot sexual taste in me.